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I am not a good person.

It seems as though little things have been getting to me far too much lately..

going an entire day without talking to a single person, getting back to the place that's supposed to be my refuge to see the same obnoxious intrusion..slamming doors, long and pointless work in a lab (Foxconn?), trying to make food with pancake mix, a bag of carrots, and tortillas..attempting to study but being too exhausted to do so, having my one connection with him broken because technology is the best and worst thing to ever happen to man, getting in 10 minutes before things get haywire, the disappointment of not having the movie nights/cookie making/girl talks I thought I would get from my new roommate because she's too wrapped up with a guy..feeling alone and only having a stupid yappy dog (that isn't that cute by the way) for company, and wondering what it's going to be like when I leave this place.

Summer..it's always a toss up between extreme boredom and the best experiences I've ever have. I hope it doesn't get too lonely, I hope I didn't make the wrong decisions, that I didn't sign up for the wrong classes, I hope I make good friends and everything goes hunkydory..

It might miss the point entirely, but I wish one could rack up karma points to redeem them for wishes. But then I guess that would provide people incentive to do good deeds without the whole selfless act business and then the universe would be out of wack...spontaneous reactions=-ΔG..

the universe thrives on chaos. I wonder why society wouldn't work if everyone just went around smiling at strangers all day, or donated money because they have too much instead of excessively spending on cars, clothes, drugs.

Today was obviously not a happy day in the world of X..I just hope my piece of sunshine comes back soon..at least before everything dies. (gah so morbid now..how to fix this...helloooo dailysquee..)

[little kid outside: 'yeah, try to hit me bastard!!' kids these days...wonder how I'd do as a parent if my kid(s) were little hellraisers..enter the Corner, I suppose. ]