Backup

I really hate people who have everything handed to them and don't even acknowledge the fact that there are those who struggle to get by or to get where they are. It may even be worse since there are those who befriend these people to take advantage of them (friends with benefits in a sense). Cheap people disgust me. I'd rather work until I die than sell myself out so easily because it would degrade my parents if I were to do so after they sacrificed everything for me.

I know people who skip meals because they can't afford to buy food and there are other people I know who spend 100s on a meal because they can and the stupid idiots who want to date these people because of their money (or how they look in a mini skirt).

I don't have anything (yet) except for being driven and a need to help people. It's less noticeable I guess, than say, giving free alcohol/food/expensive gifts or dressing slutty to win people over.

It's a very confusing place to be in. The genuinely good people are generally treated like leftovers and second rate while those who are truly immoral or just bad to begin with are valued. At this stage in life I suppose physical attraction is the main criteria in determining how things will go (even if the majority of things that come out of their mouth is rubbish) and everything else like a sense of morbid humor or even intelligence is just an extra. I am wondering if that was why someone (the wiser one between us) told me not to expect anything of major importance come out of young love seeing as it's usually infatuation or a physical need to be satisfied (cuddling or sex..I guess a puppy and a vibrator could do just as well as a replacement..or you can go all out and get an amorphous robotic cuddling buddy >>see creepy video<<). At this point in life it's more of an animalistic need than anything that can carry through life..there are no financial or moral burdens involved (usually involved with jobs, children, housing). So it's an experience of sorts. A lot of men I know are stupid, materialistic fools who are so easily swayed by a touch or sweet words. I have yet to meet someone who can see through all the haze or choose me first but when it happens I'll know.

**Note: These thoughts are just a study session-induced spontaneous word vomit. I am not describing any specific individual.