Study Break

And I'd give up forever to touch you
'Cause I know you feel the same now
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be,
And I don't want to go home right now

It's cold and rainy outside but my heart feels warm-I didn't know that was possible. I come back to a bunch of cold and indifferent girls who ruin my life but there are friends waiting to take care of me. Sometimes all you need is a phone call or a fortuitous meeting.

I've told the story of The Meeting two or three times in the past couple months and everytime it manages to make me and the other person smile. I am lucky to have something (or more specifically, someone) to look forward to, otherwise certain situations would be made all the more depressing..like seeing the Christmas Party list on the fridge in my apartment and not having my name on it. It's as if I don't even live there. I'm so very lucky to have finals and the loving boyfriend and friends to occupy my time otherwise the ignored Have a good day's would probably start to get to me. People can be very cruel. I wish to be in a place where I'm happy to go home at the end of the day, actually it should be the highlight of my day and what I look forward to as I go about my day because that's where the people I love are waiting for me. That would be nice, to be in a place like that.

I remember when I was little, the most comforting sound in the winter was the dull roar of the furnace, because that sound and the smell of warm blankets (my mum would put them in the dryer right before my brother and I would go to sleep and wrap us in them with a hug) always meant that there are people who unconditionally love me under that house. I was very lucky to be in such a place for so long. It was a comforting feeling but I guess everyone has to go through a second birth of sorts..The World Pt. 1 and then The World Pt. 2: Vengeance.

It would be amazing to come home to wagging puppy tails and a big kiss from both puppies. Be able to watch TV without the lingering smell of a skunk in the living room and go to sleep nice and warm. Argh, I would do anything* for some couch cuddling time with my puppy.

*Excludes sexual favors, anything that would destroy my dignity or career, or harm others in any way (including labradoodles).

..another thought: I wish people would stop drinking and play with me.