Memories

I bike past Lot 22 and I remember that time you told me you wanted a real hug and hoisted me up and at the time I had thought, 'wow I haven't been up this high in a while' but I guess the normal person would be thinking something else at the time..

studied at the library where you once came to visit me and even stayed for a little while even though you don't like going there..

Biking along Pardall I can see when you and your best friend would saunter to class and I'd look forward to seeing you later that night..

By Storke Tower, there are still those trees we climbed that rainy night..

I bike to the Rec Cen and see your old apartment, where we'd take naps in the sunlight and watch funny shows or movies but end up doing something else anyway..

Went to get groceries and drove past a movie theatre, where you got me my favorite icecream without me even mentioning it..

Ate dinner with a room full of people but it was just like being alone because I have no one to share my food with..

Trying to sleep with your soft fluffy blanket wrapped around me, a sweater that smells like you by my head and I remember how I'd bury my head in your chest and you'd wrap your arms around me tight and I'd go to sleep to the thump-thump of your heart..

Someone said that the first year is easy, but I'm not sure they knew what they were talking about..everyday is just as hard, but the nights are the worst..I begin to hate the stench of the Town because I'd rather be inhaling the smell of soap and I hate going to sleep with drunken screams and the smell of skunks in my living room floating into my room..

Come to think of it, we used to go to sleep with these same sounds, but the only difference is you're not here this time..

I wish I could drive to see you..when did having a car become useless?