Since when did my heart start stuttering when I think my computer's about to wake up and he would come on? I don't think anyone ever really chooses this situation, it's more like being forced into it. Simply because no one else comes close, and because you can't choose who you love. Or maybe it has something to do with the senses. Like when you see someone hold themselves just so and you remember how they used to sit next to you and hold your hand while you're doing whatever (studying for neuro) or when something wafts by and it smells just like when they leaned down to kiss you on the cheek. It's a million things that time and distance can't really erase. Even if the days are filled of fun things to do and funny people to be with, at night everything comes back in full force and you wonder if you are missed just as much. Or if you are just a distant memory to them. Because there are so many people who are more attractive, or smarter, or more confident. And being just yourself might not be enough..
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