Today was another rainy day. It was raining everywhere I think. Had another huge, unwanted, and unexpected fight with him. So went off on my day completely out of sorts and distracted. Got physiology late but came up with some questions after class and sat in the front row so that the professor know that I'm a decent student. Went to bacteria class and for some reason, whenever I'm stressed, not only does it make my hair turn white, I get sleepy no matter where I am or who I'm with.
Having been told (not verbatim of course) that maybe he's falling out of love with me (I had gotten so caught up in moments and words that I forgot about the whole commitment thing and how, at this stage in life, it's a little too early to think about something so far off. Because to commit oneself at such a young age only sometimes works out. You're not fully aware of who the other person (or you, even) is. My parents told me to give it time for some reason once. And I remember my tae kwon do sensei lecturing us about his failed marriage, how you never really know someone because after 5 years of dating and 7 years of being married, she leaves him and takes their daughter. It's upsetting.
So I was distracted the entire day wondering if this is all progressing the way I wanted it to. Or maybe everything was taken back
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