I think days like this send you to the point of nearly breaking, especially when I come home to my computer and he's not there and it drives me to tears even though I saw him only a few hours earlier.
Whenever he's around I feel invincible and not afraid of anything. I could take on anything and anyone. But ever since he abandoned me for a better life I fell into one of the worst depressions ever. It's becoming almost debilitating, I could hardly function just because I ended the morning conversation poorly.
I was so confident in myself, thinking that I could do everything on my own, but I didn't realize that it would be infinitely harder without him around.
I don't see the point in doing anything anymore, going to class and labs night and day, socializing with friends.. all I want is for him to be here. And the one thing I want, I can't have because within a month he'll find someone else and be over me and I'll be left all alone.
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