Ugh, reading over my older posts, I wonder when I began to become such a cynic. Hmm, I wonder if it started with having things of a certain nature come to light. I refused to listen to the advice of a lot of people because I was just so naive..that or optimistic, I can't remember the difference.
Sigh I sometimes wish things never changed. It's like the whole grass is greener on the other side thing. I struggled like hell to get to the other side only to find out that it wasn't that great to begin with. But I guess you need to get to the other side otherwise you'll always wonder what you could have had.
I miss the past..it was a silly thing to remind me, but as I was doing laundry scared at the idea that I'd get raped, I was thinking how I used to have fun doing laundry with friends in the dorms..we'd watch movies in the laundry room or learn how to dance or have funny moments. But everyone has to grow up someday. All the scary movies might also factor into my paranoia.
It's 11:11..
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