There was a man who looked like he could have been in the Mafia, (gold rings,chain, expensive watch, suit) but was blasting Greenday through his head phones..watched a guy who looked and spoke like Teddy Geiger try to flirt, (somewhat successfully) with a girl, (who was unfortunately a bit of an airhead) but then eventually got shot down, (after about 2 hours of flirting, helping little old ladies with their luggage and calling people ma'am/sir) when she told him she had a boyfriend (ouch). He eventually gives up and starts singing softly to himself. I know the feeling. Got off the train, transferred to a bus, and drifted in and out of sleep for 4 hours, (weird Indian guys kept watching me sleep). Got to San Jose at 4:45pm, but mum and dad heard wrong so they got to the station a bit late.
As I was standing in the cold waiting for my family to come collect me, I get a message for the Boyfriend, who tells me how much he misses me, but there was something like a but in his words, so I asked him to confirm that even though he wants to talk to me, he's still going out with the girls, right? And he texts me back to confirm. And I know it was irrational, but I was cold, alone, and felt completely dejected because, once again, he was choosing these girls over me. And I felt unloved. So I told him what I thought and so begins fight #63 (or something like that). I go off pissed that he can't understand how I'm feeling and how it hurts when your significant other tells you how much better other people are, (because, then, why are you with me at the moment?) but I'm happy to see my parents' car pull up.
Mum's ridiculously happy to see me and she gives me a mini-bear hug, (or something close to that, a bear hug from a 4'7 vietnamese woman). My little brother's even taller than I remember, (and so is his rampant acne, poor kid). We drive over to my cousin's house. And I feel slightly out of place at the kid's table because even though 2 of my cousins are around my age, (21, 23), my family's always saying I should look more like them (30 lbs lighter), they're wearing the same type of clothes, same layered, bangs across the eyes hair style, talking about parties or something and so I talk to my brother and younger cousins about college. My older cousin asks about the boyfriend and there's something of a grin when she hears that he won't be back till September. I hope everything works out for her though, I know how hard it is to find love when you're looking in the wrong places, (clubs, parties, best friends of people you just dated). Played a couple games of card and gave up when we had an extended game of Slap Jack where all three of us were particularly slow. Really really good food..don't remember when the last time I had real fruit juice, roasted chicken and garlic rice, or spring rolls was, (that's right ha!). No turkey (or turducken
Cuddling with Mr. Panda in a nice warm bed with the smell of flowers floating around..given the circumstances, things couldn't get much better than this. So I'll enjoy it and being grateful for it for as long as I can.
It's probably not the best thought to go to bed with, but I hope we straighten things out, when I got his reply, I had thought for sure that he was fed up and wanted to just forget about me, (especially with these really good people who know how to cook and take care of people are around him..for a year..while I'm miles away and argue with him most of the time..I hate how distance tears people apart..
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